As
a former minister and elder ofthe Christian church, it has become incumbent
upon me to enlighten those that continue to walk in darkness. After embracing
Islam I felt a dire need to help those who have not yet been blessed to
experience the light of Islam.
I thank Almighty God, Allah, for having mercy upon me, causing me to
come to know the beauty of Islam as taught by Prophet Muhammad and his rightly
guided followers. It is only by the mercy of Allah that we receive true
guidance and the ability to follow the straight path, which leads to success in
this life and the Hereafter.
Praise be to Allah for the kindness shown to me by Shaykh 'Abdullah bin
'Abdul-'Azeez bin Baz upon my embracing Islam. I cherish and will pass on the
knowledge gained from each meeting with him. There are many others who have
helped me by means of encouragement and knowledge, but for fear of missing
anyone, I will refrain from attempting to list them. Sufficient it is to say
that I thank Almighty God, Allah, for each and every brother and sister that He
has allowed to play a role in my growth and development as a Muslim.
I pray that this short work will be of benefit to all. I hope that
Christians will find that there is yet i hope for the wayward conditions that
prevail over the bulk of Christendom. The answers to Christian problems are not
to be found with the Christians themselves, for they are, in most instances,
the root of their own problems. Rather, Islam is the solution to the problems
plaguing the world of Christianity,as well as the problems facing the so-called
worldof religion as a whole. May Allah guide us all and reward us according to
the very best of our deeds and intentions.
Abdullah
Muhammad al-Faruque at-Ta'if, Kingdom of Saudi Arabia
Beginings
As a young boy I was raised with a
deep fear of God. Having been partially raised by a grandmother who was a
Pentecostal fundamentalist, the church became an integral part of my life at a
very early age. By the time I had reached the age of six, I knew all too well
the benefits awaiting me in Heaven for being a good little boy and the
punishment awaiting in Hell for little boys who are naughty. I was taught by my
grandmother that all liars were doomed to go to the Hellfire, where they would
burn forever and ever.
My mother worked two full-time
jobs and continued to remind me of the teachings given to me by her mother. My
younger brother and older sister did not seem to take our grandmother's
warnings of the Hereafter as seriously as I did. I recall seeing the full moon
when it would take on a deep reddish hue, and I would begin to weep because I
was taught that one of the signs of the end of the world would be that the moon
would become red like blood. As an eightyear old child I began to develop such
a fear at what I thought were signs in the heavens and on earth of Doomsday
that I actually had nightmares of what the Day of Judgement would be like. Ourhouse
was close to a set of railroad tracks, and trains passed by on a frequent
basis. I can remember being awakened out of sleep by the horrendous sound of
the locomotive's horn and thinking that I had died and was being resurrected
after hearing the sound of the trumpet. These teachings were ingrained in my
young mind through a combination of oral teachings and the reading of a set of
children's books known asthe Bible Stoly.
Every Sunday we would go to church
dressed in all of our finery. My grandfather was our means of transportation. Church would last for
what seemed to me like hours. We would arrive at around eleven in the morning
and not leave until sometimes three in the afternoon. I remember falling asleep
in my grandmother's lap on many occasions. For a time my brother and I were
permitted to leave church in between the conclusion of Sunday school and
morning worship service to sit with our grandfather at the railway yard and
watch the trains pass. He was not a churchgoer, but he saw to it thatmyEamily
made it there every Sunday. Sometime later he suffered a stroke, which left him
partiallyparalyzed, and as a result, we were unable to attend church od a
regular basis. This period of time would be one of the most crucial stages of
my development.
Rededication
I
was relieved, in a sense, at no longer being able to attend church, but I would
feel the urge to go on my own every now and then. At age sixteen I began
attending the church of a friend whose father was the pastor. It was a small
storefrontbuildingwith only my friend's family, myself, and another schoolmate
as members. This went on for only several months before -the church closed
down. After graduating from high school and entering the university I
rediscovered my religious commitment and became fully immersed in Pentecostal
teachings. I was baptized and "filled with the Holy Ghost," as the
experience was then called. As a college student, I quickly became the pride of
the church. Everyone had high hopes for me, and I was happy to once again be
"on the road to salvation. "
I
attended church every time its doors would open. I studied the Bible for days
and weeks at a time. I attended lectures given by the Christian scholars of my
day, and I acknowledged my call to the ministry at the age of 20. I began
preaching and became well known very quickly. I was extremely dogmatic and
believed that no one could receive salvation unless they were of my church
group. I categorically condemned everyone who had not come to know God the way
I had cometo knowHim. I was taught that Jesus Christ (peace be upon him) and
God Almighty were one and the samething. I was taught that our church did not
believe in the trinity but that Jesus (peace be upon him) was indeed the
Father, Son and Holy Ghost. I tried to make myself understand it even though I
had to admit that I really did not fully understand it. As far as I was
concerned, it was the only doctrine that made sense to me. I admired the holy
dress ofthewomenandthe pious behavior of the men. I enjoyed practicing a
doctrine where women were required to dress in garments covering themselves
completely, not painting their faces with makeup, and carrying themselves as
true ambassadors of Christ. I was convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that I
had finally found the true path to eternal bliss. Iwould debate with anyone
from a different church with different beliefs and would totally silence them
with my knowledge of the Bible. I memorized hundreds of Biblical passages, and
this became a trademark of my preaching. Yet, even though I felt assured of
being on the right path, a part of me was still searching. I felt that there
was an even higher truth to be attained.
I
would meditate while alone and pray to God to lead me to the correct religion
and to forgive me if what I was doing was wrong. I had neverhad any contact
with Muslims. The only people I knew that claimed Islam as their religion were
the followers of Elijah Muhammad, who were referred to by many as the "Black
Muslims" or the "Lost-Found Nation." It was during this period
in the late seventies that Minister Louis Farrakhan was well into rebuilding
what was called "The Nation of Islam." Iwentto hear Minister
Farrakhan speak at the invitation of a coworker and found it to be an
experience that would change my life dramatically. I had never in my life heard
another black man speak the way that he spoke. I immediately wanted to arrange
a meeting with him to try to convert him to my religion. I enjoyed
evangelizing, hoping to find lost souls to save from the Hellfire - no matter
who they were.
After
graduating from college I began to work on a full-time basis. As I was reaching
the pinnacle of my ministry, the followers of Elijah Muhammad became more
visible, and I appreciated their efforts in attempting to rid the black
community of the evils that were destroying it from within. I beganto support
them, in a sense, by buying their literature and even meeting with them for
dialogue. I attended their study circles to find out exactly what they
believed. As sincere as I knew many of them were, I could not buy the idea of
God being a black man. I disagreed with their use of the Bible to support their
position on certain issues. Here was a book that I knewvery well, and I was
deeply disturbed atwhatIdeemed was their misinterpretation of it. I had
attended locally supported Bible schools and had become quite knowledgeable in
various fields of Bible study.
After
about six years I moved to Texas and became affiliated with two churches. The
first church was led by a young pastor who was inexperienced and not very
learned. My knowledge of the Christian scriptures had by this time developed
into something abnormal. I was obsessed with Biblical teachings. I began to
look deeper into the scriptures and realized that I knew more than the present
leader. As a show of respect, I left and joined another church in a different
city where I felt that I could learn more. The pastor of this particular church
was very scholarly. He was an excellent teacher but had some ideas that were
not the norm in our church organization. He held somewhat liberal views, but I
still enjoyed his indoctrination. I was soon to learn the most valuable lesson
of my Christian life, which was "all that glitters is not gold."
Despiteitsoutwardappearance,there were evils taking place that I never thought
were possible in the Church. These evils caused meto reflect deeply, and I
began questioning the teaching to which I was so dedicated.
Welcome to the Real Church World
I
soon discovered that there was a great deal of jealousy prevalent in the
ministerial hierarchy. Things had changed from that to which I was accustomed.
Women wore clothing that I thought was shameful. People dressed in order to
attract attention, usually from the opposite sex. I discovered just how great a
part money and greed play in the operation of church activities. There were
many small churches struggling, and they called upon us to hold meetings to
help raise money for them. I wastoldthatifa church did not have a certain
numberofmembers, then I was not to waste my time preaching there because I
would not receive ample financial compensation. I then explained that I was not
in it for the money and that I would preach even if there was only one member
present... and I'd do it for free! This caused a disturbance. I started
questioning those whom I thought had wisdom, only to find that they had been
putting on a show. I learned that money, power and position were more important
than teaching the truth about the Bible. As a Bible student, I knew full well
that there were mistakes, contradictions and fabrications. I thought that
people should be exposed to the truth about the Bible. The idea of exposing the
people to such aspects of the Bible was a thought supposedly attributable to
Satan. But I began to publicly ask my teachers questions during Bible classes,
which none of them could answer. Not a single one could explainhowiesus was
supposedly God, and how, at the same time, he was supposedly the Father, Son
and Holy Ghost wrapped up into one and yet wasnotapartofthe trinity. Several
preachers finally had to concede that they did not understand it but thatwewere
simply required to believe it.
Cases
of adultery and fornication went unpunished. Some preachers were hooked on
drugs and had destroyed their lives and the livesoftheir families. Leaders of
some churches were found to be homosexuals. There were pastors even guilty of
committing adultery with the young daughters of other church members. All of this
coupledwitha failure to receive answers to what I thought were valid questions
was enough to make me seek a change. That change came when I accepted a job in
the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia.
A New Begining
It
was not long after arriving in Saudi Arabia that I saw an immediate difference
inthelifestyleofthe Muslim people. They were different from the followers of
Elijah Muhammad and Minister Louis Farrakhan in that they were of all
nationalities, colors and languages. I immediately expressed a desireto learn
more about this peculiar brand of religion. I was amazed with the life of
Prophet Muhammad and wanted to know more. I requested books from one of the
brothers who was active in calling people to Islam. I was supplied with all of
the books that I could possibly want. I read each and every one. I was then
given the Holy Qur'an and read it completely several times within four months.
I asked question after question and received satisfactory answers. What
appealed to me was that the brothers were not keen on impressing me with their
knowledge. If a brother did not know how to answer a question, he would tell me
that he simply did not know and would have to check with someone who did. The
next day he would always bring the answer. I noticed how humility played such a
great role in the lives of these mysterious people of the Middle East.
I
was amazed to see the women covering themselves from face to foot. I did not
see any religious hierarchy. No one was competing for any religious position.
All of this was wonderful, but how could I entertain the thought of abandoning
a teaching that had followed me since childhood? What about the Bible? I knew
that there is some truth in it even though it had been changed and revised
countless numbers of times. I was then given a video cassette of a debate between Shaykh Ahmed Deedat and Reverend Jimmy
Swaggart. After seeing the debate I immediately became a Muslim. (To see this
debate thru' RealAudio for yourself, click HERE)
I
was taken to the office of Shaykh 'Abdullah bin 'Abdul-'Azeez bin Baz to
officially declare my acceptance of Islam. It was there that I was given sound
advice on how to prepare myself for the long journey ahead. It was truly a
birth from darkness into light. I wondered what my peers fromthe Church would
think when they heard that I had embraced Islam. It was not long before I found
out. I went back to the United States for vacation and was severely criticized
for my "lack of faith." I was stamped with many labels - from
renegade to reprobate. People were told by so-called church leaders not to even
remember me in prayer. As strange as it may seem, I was not bothered in the
least. I was so happy that Almighty God, Allah, had chosen to guide me aright
that nothing else mattered.
Now
I only wanted to become as dedicated a Muslim as I was a Christian. This, of
course, meant study. I realized that a person could grow as much as they wanted
to in Islam. Thereis no monopoly of knowledge - it is free to all who wish to
avail themselves of the opportunities to learn. I was given a set of Saheeh
Muslim as a gift from my Qur'an teacher. It was then that I realized the
need to learn about the life, sayings and practices of Prophet Muhammad . I
read and studied as many of the hadlth collections available in English
as possible. I realized that my knowledge of the Bible was an asset that is now
quite useful in dealing with those of Christian backgrounds. Life for me has
taken on an entirely new meaning. One of the most profound attitude changes is
a result ofknowingthatthislife must actually be spent in preparation for life
in the Hereafter. It was also a new experience to know that we are rewarded
even for our intentions. If you intend to do good, then you are rewarded. Itwas
quite different in the Church. The attitude wasthat "the path to Hell is
paved with good intentions." There was no way to win. Ifyousinned,thenyou
had to confess to the pastor, especially if the sin was a great sin, such as
adultery. You were judged strictly by your actions.
The Present and Future
After
an interview by the Al-Madinah newspaper I was asked about my
present-day activities and plans for the future. At present, my goal is to
learn Arabic and continue studying to gain greater knowledge about Islam. I am
presentlyengaged inthefield-of da'wah and am called upon to lecture to
non-Muslims who come from Christian backgrounds. If Allah, Almighty, spares my
life, I hope to write more on the subject of comparative religion.
It
is the duty of Muslims throughout the world to work to spread the knowledge of
Islam. As one who has spent such a long time as a Bible teacher, I feel a
special sense of duty in educating people about the errors, contradictions and
fabricated talesofabook believed in by millions of people. One of the greatest
joys is knowing that I do not have to engage in a great deal of dispute with
Christians, because I was a teacher who taught most of the disputetechniques
used by them. I also learned how to argue using the Bible to defend
Christianity. And at the same time I know the counter arguments for each
argument which we, as ministers, were forbidden by our leadersto discuss or
divulge.
It is my prayer that Allah will forgive us all of our ignorance and guide us to the path leading to Paradise. All praise is due to Allah. May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon His last messenger, Prophet Muhammad, his family, companions, and those following true guidance.